In 2009 while enlisted in the Marine Corps I was injured during training. At the time I didn’t think much of the injury and figured I would heal rather quickly. I unfortunately did not heal quickly. I was made to do PFT (Physical Fitness Training) and CFT (Combat Fitness Test) training when I should have been resting and therefore further injured my back. The years went by and I became accustomed to the Dr visits. I knew this would be a journey that would last a long time. I remember one Dr in North Carolina where I was stationed explained to me that within ten years I may need surgery. I brushed it off and thought “I’ll heal and won’t need it”. Fast forward ten years, I’m now in bed unable to move much because I injured my back again. I had an MRI done yesterday and now I am awaiting the results. There are times where I sit and ask God, “what are you doing in my life right now Lord?” I ask questions often about why I have gone through what I have gone through and why He has me where He has me. One thing is for sure, I am so glad that He is with me even in the midst of this pain. There are days where I’m in so much pain that I can’t help but cry, this past Sunday evening was one of those days, but even in these painful moments I get to rejoice over the reality that they are momentary afflictions that one day will be no more when I am in Heaven. In reading Job and seeing him in his pain I think of the verse where he said “But it is still my consolation, and I rejoice in unsparing pain, That I have not denied the words of the Holy One!” Job 6:10. Job was in severe pain after losing his kids, crops and later becoming covered in boils. This man knew pain well. Yet, he never doubted God. He knew God was good. He told his wife “shall we receive good and not evil” obviously God does not cause us pain, but He allows us to go through pain, for in allowing these unfortunate painful realities we are able to grow and preserve. The Holy One knows what He is doing. James tells us to “consider it all joy, my brethren, when you meet trials of various kinds, knowing that the testing of your faith produces endurance.” Well, I no longer live in fear, I cast all my cares upon the one who loves me and is there with me. When fear try’s to creep in I place it at the feet of the Father. This pain shall one day pass. This pain is my reminder that God is good and that I am human. I have made peace with whatever God chooses to allow me to go through. No matter the pain and or discomfort I will continue to serve my Lord with my life. Pain and all! No matter what is going on continue to serve the Lord and continue to trust in His perfect will. May God lead you through the storms in your lives.
In His Grace,